THE LOVELY CRAZY

The past week was a blur.

A friend sent me a meme the other day that really hit home for me. It said “I wish this would all be over so everyone would just leave me the fuck alone” Yup.

And a few days ago I accidentally dropped my new toothbrush into toilet. But I am ok. And in case you are wondering, I had a new toothbrush on standby so my teeth are ok too.

How are you holding up? Going crazy? Are you getting shit done? Are you loving it or hating it? Or are you just getting use to it but then freaking out about how use to it you are getting? That last is me. Usually what happens is I will be feeling calm and fine but then I will read or hear something totally fucked on the news (I listen to NPR for most of the day so it’s my own damn fault but I have been switching my listening habits to mostly music or podcasts. I have made some pretty sick quarentine playlists for sure.) and the emotions go haywire again. But I think mostly, for me, I am just feeling kind of, well I don’t know, wonky? Itchy? Irritable? All of the above, plus a little scared, sad, and crazy. But also happy, grateful, and calm. So many feelings and I am not good with a lot of feels at once. Thats it! I am a EMOTIONALLY OVERLOADED!

Anyway, the weather, so nice! Good thing to because besides taking the littles almost everyday out for their daily hikes, or being able to walk around the block with my mom (10 feet apart), either the mr or I might end this thing living up in the tree house. Hahaha. No, we are so good, we just have our moments that may or may not end in obscene hand gestures and lots a vomit. 😁 But seriously, the tree house. It’s our contingency plan. The mr has spent a fair amount of time up there carving spoons or just sitting, just to give me space. (he is so nice!) And I have discovered the amazingness of headphones. I don’t usually have a need to wear them but this week I busted out an old pair and realized how amazing it is to not hear anything other then music. Really loud music. It’s like being alone. Ah, the small things.

Today. Sunday, in case you were wondering. It is not a great day for me. It’s 4 years ago that Sean died so I am emotional and cranky and blah. So what I am going to do is go for a run, call my mom, text all my siblings that I love them and then tell everyone to leave me the fuck alone. The mr and I are going to take a drive, find some woods where I can be with no one else around hide away for a while. Then we need to go grocery shopping. I am down to my last serving of carrots and ran out of my St Patricks day stash of cabbage. I am really hoping people have calmed the fuck down and haven’t emptied the produce section by the time I get there. I will lose my shit if I can’t get some carrots. Not today. Just have the fucking carrots.

My internet looking from me to you.

-Read a few and you will laugh and feel better about wanting to punch a wall or bite your partner. The Social Distance Project

-Fuck It, Let Them Eat Cake. If it makes things ok, even just for a little while, then why the fuck not.

-I could totally be quarantined here. Detailed Minimalism’: A Designer’s Bucolic Cottage in the Welsh Countryside

-There's No Better Time to… Use the Oldest Thing In Your Pantry. Seriously. I went through my pantry and have been using all the oldest stuff first. I haven’t even restocked half of my beans because I am trying to use up all of what I have. (I have like 12 different varieties so I have a tone of beans) IT feels good.

-This is very important. How to Not Completely Hate the People You’re Quarantined With.

-STARTING SEEDS INDOORS: HOW AND WHEN TO START SEEDS. I started a bunch of stuff this week!!!!

-You wanted to know, you just didn't;t know you wanted to. The Wild but True Story of How One Writer Figured Out the Origin of the “Triscuit” Name

-As a potter and a perpetual hand washer anyway, my hands are always dry as fuck. This is one of my favorite hand creams (I use it on my face at night in the winter too) Weleda Skin Food Original Ultra-Rich Cream Also this. Hemp Hand Protector

-How Nature Has Become America’s Saving Grace As We Shelter In Place. Just remember to take care and maybe consider what will happen if we don’t take more steps and keeping this planet healthy….

-Still have a couple rainbows and mugs for sale on the web store. Going to throw some rainbow mugs up there later this week too. stem+node Ceramics

Pictures from the week.

You Burnt out yet? I am.

Holy shit the past week has been crazy. Christmas, multiple birthday parties, (Happy Birthday Cameron, Anthony, and Judah!!) Cake baking, food making, present wrapping, house cleaning, farm walking, bad driving, freezing as fuck temperature. It has been a lot (A LOT!) but it has been good even though I am exhausted and desperately in need of a hole to crawl in.

It started with Christmas with Mom and the whole family.. All piled into the house, shoes and jackets left on the back porch, we did secret Santa, food, cookies and all the stuff. Then after Christmas we did a little Cameron birthday party with the best ever ice-cream cake that I have ever made and anyone has ever eaten (no joke). Then they left and I cleaned for hours. The next day the mr and I set off early for the NEK and spent a little time with some of his family and took a quick (not really, the roads were terrible) jaunt up to his sisters farm where we checked out plumbing and oohed and aahed at all the work the lady has done. Then back home for Anthony's Birthday party.

Jeff Dad was now in town so we did some visiting and food eating with him in-between the mr running around checking pipes for all the apartments and the tiny bits of work we could and were willing to do in this crazy cold weather. So far so good, neither of us have turned into a popsicle but another weeks of highs near or bellow 0 gives us plenty of more chances it to happen. Just as long as the none of our or our tenants pipes freeze, we should be all set.

Miley and Judah slept over on Friday night where we had a preemptive birthday for the boy. The mr and the littles filled up water ballons and blew bubbles in the -10 weather . Then we had pizzas in the shape of an 8 and watched Beethoven with popcorn that ended up all over the house. Woke the littles to purple and green birthday pancakes, frozen water balls, and Barbara with her new purple hair. Then we had the last Christmas celebration for a little while (until next week there is one more xmas thing and another bday party, but that's small potatoes) Jeff Dad and the family all come over for a Christmas celebration of breakfast tacos, hash browns, and more wrapping paper for me to get ride of. Honestly, my back porch has turned into a compost and recycling station. I need to deal with it but the cold and the transfer station isn't open and it's just madness. Anyway, after the Christmas celebration I kicked everyone out so I could clean up the mess and decorate the boys birthday cake. The x box controller that he has been telling me for the past year that he wanted, all in cake form and ready for his face. It came out pretty good if I do say so my self. (The boy was so very happy). And then everyone left and I crashed. My house is still a mess, and there are soccer balls everywhere (The mr and Judah can't help themselves) not to mention the balloons and pine needles and all my broken xmas ornaments ......But I survived.

New Years Eve, whoop whoop. I say it like there is something that I am excited about but for reals, I am just excited to have a little space, clean the fuck out of my house, relax with the mr, and just be. Good bye 2017, it was real.

Internet from the week

-When I heard what he tweeted I busted out laughing then started swearing at the tv. I mean, really. REALLY. Trump thinks climate change isn't real because it's cold out. This map proves him wrong.

-Say goodbye to this year. Say hello to next year. Some good questions for a little self reflections.

-I am really looking forward ro going to this exhibit. Might even take the a few littles with me, I know there is a humongous ring pop on display. Sweet Tooth: The Art of Dessert

- Call me intrigued. They are not trying to make a meat substitute that tastes like real meat but has a lot of the texture that people are missing and is nutritious and familiar. COULD FINLAND'S 'PULLED OATS' HOLD THE 100-PERCENT VEGETARIAN ANSWER TO YOUR MEAT CRAVINGS?

-When Harry Met Barack: Obama Tells Prince About Life After White House. To be in the room with these two... dreams.

-Maybe I will start a spice farm Yes, that is it. Thats what I need to do with my life.. Americans Love Spices. So Why Don't We Grow Them?

-Hell to the no would I pay that $58 for a freaking watermelon. THIS ALASKAN SUPERMARKET MAY BE THE MOST EXPENSIVE IN AMERICA.

-I am in such of a good rug punch needle myself. Nature-Based Textiles by Vanessa Barragão Highlight Ecosystems Above and Below the Sea

-Should I Forking Force Myself to Swear More? Um, yes. But not really cause I have a pretty bad potty mouth as it is.

-I think I really need this. Or maybe even this one. We always have a lot of jackets to hang up.

Pictures from the week.