Not going to lie. Today is a hard day. It's Sean's birthday... He would be 27.
Thump thump (that's my head hitting a wall)
I am not at the point yet where I think of Sean and am not sad because well, I am sad all the time. But I really want to get there, where when I think of him, it makes me happy, or well, more happy then sad. I know it's going to take time (I just have to say that I hate how everyone says it just takes time. No shit) and that I will get there someday. But today, I am, for him and for me, try spending today thinking about all the good times and not be so sad.
So yeah, going to spend 1/2 the day doing some work (keeps the mind at bay) and the other half with the family. They are grilling up hot dogs while I eat lettuce by the head, and we are just going celebrate Sean the way we celebrate everything in our family. Together with food. We will sit around, talking about everything and nothing, let the littles run around , let the dogs run wild, and just be. The is sun is shinning, the world is warm, and the family will be surrounded by each other. (like everyday for the past two weeks.. so much family time) And of course Sean will be the center of attention, not there physically, but in all the spirit.
And as for taking the day to chill, I am postponing my day of nothing until tomorrow and locking my door on the world. I love my family oh so much but if I don't take a day to myself... I might bite someones head off.
Anyway. Got some stuff from the good old internet that happen to be of some interest to me.
-Did you know it's National Park Week.. National parks are the best so you should go get your butt to the closest one, it's free! (Bring a picnic and some hiking boots)
- This coloring book needs to happen.
- I feel in love with these photos that a mom took of her kids. They are amazing
-Screw GI Joes, if you want plastic action figures get these. Yoga Joes
-Ever wonder how museums keep their art collections clean? Check this guy out cleaning a Pollack. There is no way I could do anything close to that, I would loss my shit.
-I will be looking for this book next time I am at the library (for the littles of course) 'Can I Eat That?' a Whimsical New Children's Book
-Tree houses in house plants.. two of my favorite things together in one.
-What Do Recyclable, Biodegradable & Compostable Really Mean?
-This is just one reason I avoid eating out.. I am paranoid, and for good reason... 'Farm To Fable'? Tampa Probe Finds Many Restaurants Lie About Sourcing
Some new pictures from the past week.
Hope everyone is having a great day and enjoying life.
Happy Birthday Sean, Love you!
-C